阿公走了。就在上個星期六。享年九十三歲。
週末的忙碌讓我在今天才真的感覺到他已經不在的事實。
在這之前，阿公已經在加護病房裡住上了一個多月，我們也多少已經預料到這一天的來臨。但還是不忍回想過去…
在阿媽過世後，阿公就一直待在台南，我和阿公也漸漸變得疏遠。後來因為他重聽的厲害，就連回台南看他也沒辦法和他真的交談。
但我記得，在我還是個小女孩的時候，有一次阿公從台北要回去台南，我還偷偷哭得希哩嘩啦。
阿公年輕的時候是個嚴父，但是對孫子輩卻是照顧有加，彷彿是角色的轉換，讓他也稍稍露出溫柔的一面。
他是個正直、細心、喜歡碎碎念、有點過度節儉，卻對朋友很講義氣的人。
雖然他來不及在離開前受洗，但我相信他會去到阿媽身邊，在天堂裡，他們不會孤單。
I pray that God will forgive me for how I have failed as a grandchild and guide me to become a better daughter and friend to all the people I care about.
God bless.

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Reading the obituary dad wrote for grandpa, I couldn’t help but cry and cry so so hard.
Dad’s such a good writer, much better than I am anyway. and he mentioned the dreams he and my grandpa had last year, both about my grandma, who passed away 9 years ago. I never knew about their conversation about those dreams until now. And the sheer mention of her brought back so many memories. She is the one who took care of me and taught me all the important things i needed to know when I was a kid. Since her death, I have always felt that I failed her in many ways. Now that my grandpa is gone too, I feel that I miss my grandma even more…